What now - Now What

Things may be going a little too smoothly, you know. Have a feeling something's going to go wrong somewhere. It's all going to come crashing down pretty soon. So used to having things go wrong in my life that a little bit of steadiness makes me wonder - when is it all going to blow up?!

On the other hand - are things really going all that smooth? Let's see - I lost the gig that I actually wanted - it went to someone else. Haven't made my movie yet - I think I'm gonna bury that script soon. My short film script is languishing on the desktop - haven't gotten beyond the scene in the supermarket. Haven't finished a single one of the 3 books I started reading a month ago. In fact there are some films that I haven't finished watching either - having switched them off in the middle or the beginning - not because they weren't good or anything - but couldn't concentrate. Tried meditating a few times - was successful most times except last night - I meditated for precisely 15 mins and couldn't finish the session. Why does everything have to be so difficult? Hmmm maybe things aren't going all that great?!